Sometimes I feel like I’m swinging on a pendulum. Feeling very clear, strong and present, and then swinging into rank lows where I dip right back into painful bits of the past, overthinking all the complicated relationships in my friend and family groups. Then to top it off I hit up my old storylines and generally say mean shit to myself. I scratch my way out of the pit, and fall back in. Up, down, up, down. I’m trying to be gentle with myself, and practice all that I’ve learned the last while but it’s hard to see through the fog sometimes, so I keep asking the universe to guide me. And this morning I had a visitor so I thought I’d share the story with you guys.
My boys had fallen asleep in the basement and I ended up heading upstairs alone, well not alone. Our German Shepard came up with me. We both snuggled into our beds but we were restless. I turned on some guided meditation and at some point, I’m not sure when, I fell asleep. It seemed like only a second had passed when I was awakened the dog, now on the main floor, barking and growling. She was really going nuts. So I grabbed my phone and looked out the windows. By the way our home is situated and nestled into the hill you can see for miles, in fact you can see two nearby towns and the city from my bedroom window. From this vantage point I could see there wasn’t anyone out front. So I walked to the other bedrooms one by one, ending at the back bedroom. At first glance I thought the fields and bushes behind the house were still as well. And then suddenly as if out of nowhere I realized there was a massive bull moose standing in the tree line not twenty feet from me. He looked up at me and we stared at on another for a couple minutes before he turned and ran. I watched him disappear into the night and I looked at my phone, 1:11 am on the 11th day of the 11th month. Now some people might say that is a coincidence, but if this year has taught me anything it’s that there are no coincidences. Only a few months ago I was directed to nearby energy healers following a dream where I was guided by a wolf. Sooo whatever, I’m learning to roll with it haha. So thank you universe. I got the message, loud and clear.